i apologize for taking such a long break from dancing with you two boys...
i decided to start from the beginning, johndela1, and see just where exactly things went wrong. it didn't take long or much reading at all. it was apparent almost immediately. anybody can plainly see, if they felt so inclined to read the discussion, just how rude you really were.
i could point out specifically what you said, but it wasn't just any one of your one liners or wild animal analogies that did it, because it went on and on and on and it became not what you were saying but, simply, what you were doing.
you aren't really interested in what i think. you are supremely interested in what you think and that's it.
this whole discussion and eventual argument never really changes. it's the same damn thing over and over again.
that really bores me.
i just want both of you to know just how happy you have made me. life is so great these past few weeks. i've got a new job working 15 minutes from where i live and i can walk to work. i just bought a hunting pistol because i turned 21 recently and i'm going to hunt rabbits and squirrels this coming season. i also haven't had a drink for a long time and don't plan on drinking, perhaps ever. weed is cool, but i haven't done that in a long time and don't plan on doing that any time soon either. i just feel so wonderful everyday. i know you guys don't give a rats ass about any of this. you'll probably laugh at this entire paragraph. i have to do this right now though because the Creator isn't showing me any signs to stop. the Creator wants me to do this, here, because i don't have any friends anymore because they were all just terrible people. i'm sure you'll have your own opinions about all of that as well, why that is so. you just don't know, it was really quite bad. it's so wonderful though... just me and the Creator and fruit juice and peaches and brazil nuts and bananas, egg yolks and beef heart. they are my friends
. eating and drinking all this fruit is just perfect! everyday i just say thank you to the creator all day when little things pop up. life is glorious and beautiful and i love myself because the creator has blessed me in so many ways. my life is a complete 180o of what it was just years, even months ago. it seems thats how life always is, what the seasonal influences and what not. as you see i could just go and on. i hope i do find some people who are more like me and don't just drink and smoke and be sarcastic and laugh about everything and play video games and do stupid shit. i think it'd be fun to start a commune or just sort create a culture and nurture our way of life life native americans did, with some like minded folks. you know i've decided i'm gonna build a log house. so dirt cheap to make and you can do it all by yourself with a few simple tools. i'm gonna buy an atmospheric water generator so i don't have to worry about plumbing. i'll probably just crap and piss in the woods. we'll see how that works. probably won't. what else... i'll use the butt and pass method. most sturdy and well insulated method, or so i've heard. and instead of laying a concrete foundation i'll employ concrete pillars to combat termites and flooding. the hard and expensive part will be finding the right land. hopefully i can find cheap land. sort of defeats the purpose of saving money by building a log house to begin with. buts about more than just money. much much more. i think anyone can understand wanting to live in a log house rather than... whatever you'd call those other things people live in. it will be a reflection of me. it will be my creation. completely customized. built with my own hands(mostly) and funded with my own money. no help from mommy and daddy. they don't really care about me either, so disrespectful and rude they are. i'm sure if you've made it this far you'll have an opinion about that too. LOL! wow, i can't wait to seek out my birth mother. she's beautiful. i know this. she's been in my dreams. i think about her a lot. i know she wants me to find her. i can feel it... but if for some reason it cannot or does not happen. well who knows, but at least i'll just be able to finally say well it's time to just be on my own and start my own family. i suppose i'll need a girl for that. i had one. a good one. she was great. i think she's married now though. man life is strange. oh well, i'm sure one will come hopping along some day soon. it's pretty much written in the stars you know haha. yes this is my life story btw, and yea i know you didn't ask for this and i know you don't want it. this will probably get deleted. i hope not. funny thing about a piece like this a year ago i would have had to been on lsd or speed to jam out something like this, but not now. nope nope. just me the creator and my fruits. we fuckin rock! we're cool dudes. my brain is like WOA!!! these days. feels good, real good. feelin' fine, just in time. yea. thanks Wai. thanks oscar and johndela1. and of course, thanks to the Spirit, the Love, the Divine, the Creator. you are my love. you are my strength. you are my wisdom and my courage. i love you. that sunset was beautiful the other day btw... thanks for that. cool. alright... i think i'm done.
peace.
"the purpose is not to disengage from the physical universe. the purpose is to manifest the essence of what you are so completely that you are an aspect of the creation of the physical universe."